The Truth Always Hurts

Picture me in a white satin gown
My eyes are glistening from unshed tears
And on my face there is a frown
Picture us smiling while we clumsily cut our cake
I am laughing but my teeth are so ground together that they could break
Picture me trying ever so seductively to remove my garter
I might be trying to be a sexy siren
But my heart has never felt harder
Picture us looking all loved up and dancing while we share our first kiss
I am supposed to be ecstatic but there has never been a pain worse than this
How could you be two different men?
The one I am with now is the one I know that I will never see again
Do I really mean that little to you?
I must do
Otherwise you would be here right now as it is our wedding day
Instead of pretending to be even though your mind is far away
Why did I go through with it?
What have I done?
I cannot believe even after all you have put me through
I still want to be the only one
I just want to be all that you will ever see
But that can never be
Because the truth is you have never really loved me.