Tears begin to accumulate like clouds,
Onto the crowds of this pathetic show.
Scared to be alone,
Because when I am, it grows
Into a giant not able to be defeated.
It's been deep seeded
Like a thought it keeps repeating
And attacking my stagger.
But mainly the latter.
It keeps on stabbing me,
The pain i feel is constantly
Dawning on me as if a new reality.
Its swallowing this home of mine.
Swallowing combined with time
Like Alice I'm forever falling
Lets just hope it's a wonderland.
I'm still left wondering
If the time spent was time enough,
If this warrior is tough enough
To face this battle,
Without the vices once casual.
Now forever distant,
Like a mind in a comatose,
Without the delightful overdose,
Of those familiar incentives.
Now nothing seems consistent
But the same wishes
To get me out of these nightmares.
Some of these night terrors
Are as daunting as laughing
After you did your serious acting.
It's like I'm looking in the mirror,
My reflection knows I'm pathetic.
But I don't want to be the weak one
To not be able to finish.
