Why did u say that????

Whyd u say u loved me
i thot u love me
whyd u say u we were
instead we are
whyd u say ur trying
it used to be u did
why is it that u say these things
help plez help understand
why dont u hold me
now u walk away
why dont u kiss me
now u just smack me
why is it u laff wen u cut
an i cry wen i try
why is it u tear me down
i thot u were supposed to help build me up
i call u dnt answer
i c u not with me
plez come bck hold me
shhhh me to sleep
love me plez i need love
my wrist hurt my eyes r red
my heart as black
as the shadow under my eyes
the scars in my head as deep as
the canyons in my wrist
it is true with out love
death lurks around every corner
i could fill several nile rivers
with the tears i cried
i could feed thousands of vampires
with how much blood i shed
u could make a whole
new hell with all the shadow under my eyes
but the worst is u could kill
billions of people using just the pain
thts dwelling in my heart
thts how much i miss u drling come bck
take my hand an love me plez
i hate this place i cry
till my eyes shrivel up dry
i love u JESSIE
theres no more lying to my self
i still love u