Good-bye to my First Love

Was I stupid to believe you could be replaced?
Expecting you to miraculously disappeared from my heart?
Thinking that maybe if i spend my time on someone else,
You'd go away?
After so long,
And after every thing's been said & done,
Why can't i just LET IT GO!
You have.
And don't say you haven't.
You have someone else,
And it hurts my heart severely knowing you're devoting you're time and love to someone who isn't me.
Someone who isn't going to love you like I do.

I tell myself to get real,
And get over it.
Its easier than i think,
Just go with someone else...
Simply...Let it be.
But I CANT!
I act as if I'm over it,
and I have no feelings for you now,
But once i look at your photo and start remembering,
All that talk does nothing for me.
I break down,
And it hurts twice us much.
I wish I wouldn't have met you!
I wish someway i could go back and erase you!!
Take away your sweet words,
And all our memories,
The long talks,
And our fantasies.
I hate myself for falling.
I hate you for hurting me.
I hate my heart for never thinking about it.
I question God "WHY?!"
We were so happy!
You were my everything...
I gave you all that you could have needed,
And thought about you before anyone.

Remembering only hurts.
I wish somehow i had a delete button,
And deleted your existence.
Because you make me miserable.
I cant be happy anymore.
I hate faking a smile,
And regretting everything.

You were and always will be in my heart.
I loved you more than anyone,
And that will never change.
My first love,
I have to say goodbye.
If destiny & God wants....
We'll meet again,
And forever will be ours.
But until then...
My hearts too busy taking back all the love...
But you'll always have a big portion of it.
I said no matter what....
I love you.