If i Said Goodbye

Meaning something Ive been through
but not enough to mean or describe you
grown but still tissue
holding up but been used
and still every things the same
like hanging in a frame
I'm running but cant turn away
with contacts and memories of the name
even while frequent trips to the park
where i space and talk in dark
I remembered on the trail that you are
something ill never pass or part
so how can i say I'm leaving
when all can do is wait while bleeding
just letting go while watching
not worth grabbing or for stopping
i know i left but get a grip,I'm getting sick of letting it
so warm and right,but so impossible to forget
i down and made of bricks,and I'm getting sick of it
all i have to say is goodbye
I'm alive but I'm loosing all drive
a guiltless twisted lie, and i cant help but say goodbye
were better off this way
ill keep time and remember your name
and stop for no one or nothing
except for sleep when i see you watching
when I'm awake the best part is that its coming
but while supposing that i care
and holding onto the fact that you wont be there
and suppose that your lost lonely too
nothing that i can do to see you
please help me with this fire
lonely hopeless tired
something within me,not right tonight
something you cant see with me, if i say goodbye