Bottling Everything Up

Numb,
not feeling anything,
bottling everything up,
no crying,
no thinking about him,
pushing away anything that includes him,
the bottle finally exploded,
you're in every dream,
every thought in my mind,
tears pour out my eyes,
like a raging waterfall,
nothing of yours in my room,
all locked away inside a drawer,
i hate you,
you did this to me,
you lost the best thing you've ever got,
for what,
all because your mind is twisted,
believe things that aren't true,
you messed up bad,
& I will forget you,
you don't mean anything to me,
i won't let myself cry,
I'll get a bigger bottle
and this time,
it won't explode,
because i will erase you from my mind,
i have someone new,
someone better,
he makes me smile,
doesn't hurt me like you did,
& i hope when you find out,
it tears you apart.

- Just letting out how i feel-