Everything is my fault .. i say to myself,
even tho i know in my heart that there was no way to stop it from happening,
i still have this thought stuck in my head. telling me i could of or i should of done something to prevent it :/ but i was to Young .. i just wish i was in my dads arms at the time looking into his eyes .. and then maybe just maybe he wouldn't have disappeared from my life forever ..
mum says to dream about him .. but i honestly wouldn't know what to look for :( i was only 3months old when he past on .. i don't remember the smell of him i cant even remember being held in his arms.. oh dad has missed out on so much :/ and as i get older more events will happen and he'll still keep missing out.. one day i will get married and maybe even have kids.. mm.. i do promise to tell them all about my father and tell them everything i have heard about him to, i just hope my kids wont feel the pain i feel everyday .. missing out on my Dada .. there pop.
But life goes on and i will soon enough stop hurting but just not yet ..
