Scream

I just want to scream.....

Why do I just feel so much saddness,

so much anger, and resentment..

Why can I not find the true strength I need

to overcome this..

Why does life have to give so much

darkness, so much to make it hard to handle..

So much at once...

It's so hard to breathe sometimes,

when you are always alone

all of the choices in the mind of one

This should be so easy but yet it's just so hard

never in life has it been as hard

the feeling of wanting, the feeling of needing

and at the end of the day

you are trapped in the same place, in the same way..

The answers don't seem to come while you lay awake at night,

you just think until your head hurts

and you ask yourself the next day

Why..Why did this happen.. what did you do...

I scream but I know no one can hear it

since it is the scream trapped inside myself

that never wants to come out...

I only want as what everyone else does

just to be happy, to smile, to love,

and to be loved...

With all these days and nights that come without change

makes me wonder if what I'm doing is really enough!!!