Help

Can i do this?
can i fall in love with someone again?
will it all be taken away in a instant again
will that cause my life
cutting, hurting myself
its reason enough?
why cant they understand this is my last chance
last for something real
who's wants to be depressed all the time?
i try not to be ..
but can you actually help it...
i tried making friends
buts its harder
getting judged for what you wear,
how pretty you are
how ugly,
how do you help it?