I am numb

I felt it once,
love and happiness,
but i can no longer
remember it.

The happy
memories
shoved aside,
shadowed as
the spotlight
shines only on
the pain

I forgot,
it hurts,
I cant remember.
I am numb.

I am surrounded
by many,
and I belong,
they make me
belong.

I am loved,
they love me.
I am wanted,
they want me.

I am there.
Do they see me?

I want to love.
I want to feel it,
the joy and
happiness

I am numb.
I want to feel it.
I can't.

Why?