I've drank myself into oblivion.
I've smoked till I was numb.
I've cut myself till the razor is dull.
But nothing changes the monster I've become.
Nothing stops the darkness,
From crawling through my skin.
And nothing stops the pain,
That I have to hide within.
Nobody understands me,
And nobody really knows,
How much pain I have to hide,
So that none of it will show.
Nobody asks about my cuts,
Nobody asks to see my scars.
Nobody asks if I'm alright,
Nobody asks just how far
I've gone to stop feeling,
To just be numb to the pain.
And never to have to feel it,
Ever freaking again
