A letter to you

Dear Ex,

You came into my life unexpectedly. You were the first person to ever enter my heart. The only one. I loved you unconditionally, I would have died for you. I stood by your side, picked you over anybody. & what do you do? You hurt me, you can't make up your mind. I wasn't some rag doll for you to play with. I'm a human bean, someone who loved you more then you can ever start to imagine. I thought we were going to get married and be together forever. Or for a lifetime as you called it. But you changed, I know i shouldn't have gone. I should have stayed, But you didn't realize I never wanted to leave. You were my world. My everything. Why did this have to happen? But I can't live in the past, We weren't meant to be obviously. I miss you, the person i thought you were. But you broke me, then re broke me and thats not love. I know you love me & i know you miss me, but its to late. You can't play with my heart. I told you, you'll always be in my heart. But you won't always be in my life. Yes you are dead to me, yes i hate you with passion, but i still love you deeply. I just wanted to say, I love you, i really do. I wish you the best, despite how much you screwed me over & how much i say i hate you, I can't truly hate you. How can you hate your first love? You'll always be in my heart. I'm sorry its this way, but it is what it is. You made it become this way, you changed me into a broken non caring person.

Just remember our memories, i always will. I know you regret what you did, but its to late. Some things just can't be undone. Yes we have each others initials for when we get married on our wrists, But you'd be surprised to know, yours now has a big X over it.

Love,
Me.

-This would be a letter I'd write to my ex if i ever did, I'd add more, but it would take days to read.-