Time cant tell...

Why do you love him so much.
Why do you desire him so much.
Why can't I just disappear from this world.
The suicide dreams I have of me seem to grow realist to my cells.
I can't believe this world is made out of money,love,sex,drugs, and nature. I can't bare but see that I'm only a mear thing of your past... I can't bare but cry for you.. I can't bare to be seen as the friend.
I can't bare to keep trying to show you I changed inside n out.
I can't believe how much I can write about you everyday.
I can't believe how you do absolutely nothing at all... but yet you have the most dazzling feature that makes me so happy. That smile that voice that scent that soft skin as my lips kiss that amazing little baby face that will never grow old. As I sit here I think.. will you ever love me again... <3