Raped and alone

I remember that day all to well
the way you looked and even smelled
and the way you locked the door
I'll remember that forever more

you then turned and faced me
not knowing if i would scream
you walked around behind me
and ripped my shirt from its seams

you then carried on
thinking you were great
if only you had knew
the mess you were about o make

first you hit and kicked me
till i ended up on the floor
and then you jumped upon me
and attacked me a little more

and then when i was weak enough
it was then you tore my trousers off
you pushed it in
it really hurt
i never want to say you were my first

(those words destroy me everyday
but i suppose you can't take memories away.)

once he finished his attack
he jumped up and that was that
i lay-ed there on the floor
and cried and cried all alone
i just wanted to go home

so once i got the strength i ran
though it hurt more than i could imagine
i was black and blue (and hurt inside)
but i knew i had to swallow my pride

i walked in and told my Mom
she is the sympathetic one
but all she said is whats done is done
so i went upstairs and cried alone

now i used to be religious
i used to have a faith
but now i don't believe in god no more
cause all this happened in a church

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