Stupid Decisions

This stupid decision
This stupid mistake
I hate it
make it go away
The dread suffocates me
and it rots inside me
Why did I say yes?
Why did I give in?
I could have said no
but instead I just let go
and I lost all control
gained nothing
but wasting my day away
I wish I could go back
I would have decided differently
and now I am dwelling
on this stupid mistake
and the feelings are overwhelming
and I'm sick to my stomach
feeling the hands on me
thee aggressive lips upon mine
I just want to scrub away this grime
scrub the dirty feeling
to be me again
The innocence I once had
now gone
will this haunt me forever?
Stupid decision
Stupid mistake
make it go away
bring back the innocence I once had.