But i sure messed up.
fell in love again, and trusted his tongue.
he spent his time obsessing over things he can't admit.
& there were so many lies to keep from the hurt,
so he could keep on feeding with his sick outlet.
& so i didn't have to admit to myself,
but at the time it seemed hypocrisy was key.
i was broken down to nothing at the end of the day,
felt like falling apart and it was hard to hold onto me.
alone was the hardest part, but i kept breaking.
pulling myself to let it out took so long,
but finally my nerves were calm enough -
and he was gone.
i needed counsel to ease the pain,
& no one was there in that way.
i loved, & i lost.
& i lost and lost again.
i lost myself and everyone else.
my resurrection can't gain closure,
while I'm alone.
i need the people with pieces,
parts & the bones.
i lost her with him,
my love and my life.
would've never guessed that I'd catch this bite.
i found the reason why tonight.
one in the same, i lost them again.
i didn't lose them. they lost themselves.
they lost me. i lost who they were.
the best they could be..
