What Am I Supposed To Do?

There’s a pain inside me that hurts too much to take out
It gets so much worse when i scream or shout
i kept thinking about how hard he let me fall
which doesn't do anything to help the pain at all
my friends say i can do better, i hope that it’s true
waiting for someone special is all i can do
my heart has shattered into so many pieces
i cant believe i trusted him and lost in the end
i feel so depressed with such a broken heart
it just opens wide for each treacherous dart
why is my heart always broken and weak
and loves to crush at nearly every guys feet?
whats the use if i keep filling with pain
it just loves and trusts over again and again
any heart that is hard that loves nothing at all
that never will trust feels no pain at all
don't forget that it never feels of life that is sweet
is there really a middle where hard and soft meet
really staying or going my fellow man?
is it worth it if he lets me down again?
my soul really doesn't know
but living without love would never be the best
what to do what to say
i guess ill give it some time
for sure i don't know