Ashes in my heart

As I shed a tear on a dark stormy night
I crave to end my life
Thinking so countless ways to depart this solitary world
Not concerned of how much pain will I cause
Letting everything be but ashes in my heart
I know this will ease my pain
Something that I never had

Drip, drop
A sound so soothing and anticipated,
Red as it can be
A shattered heart pouring though droplets of blood
Crying out for help
A cut so deep, still I feel numb
Letting the agony carry me on

One, two, three scars mark my heart
Wounds that forever will remind me of you,
& your miserable life,
Not wanting to hurt any longer
Forgiving you isn't enough
But ending my life will make you suffer,
I will feel nothing but pleasure.