Two sides of a strange story

Is it a strange to say
Ive two sides in one story
a story you dont even know
something Ive kept inside
its more a fight within me
a fight between right and wrong
and its so wrong to say
that Ive never cared
cause it would be a lie
still I see how much you try
to show me how much better
you are now without me
pushing me away like
Ive never meant something
but isnt it right for me to say
that all I ever wanted
was for you to be happy
to have everything
well in this side of the story
its clearly to see that
you are the one I love the most
but in the other side of the story
makes me hate you so much
for pushing me away like Im nothing
every time when you look at me
I see your smile fading
saying that you regret you ever knew me
that you dont love me at all
well the first side of my fight
wont ever fade away
but I really hope you could
vanish the second side of my fight
cause I really dont wanna hate you ..