Overbearing Guilt

Overbearing guilt,
locked away in the bathroom,
tears streaming down her face,
blood running down her arms,
she can't handle the fact,
shes the reason her mothers dead.

Its not your fault, don't ever say that,
her family constantly reminds her,
little do they know,
its all her fault,
"If i had just shut my mouth,
she'd still be alive,"
is what she repeatedly says to herself,
in an invisible trance.

All she wanted was to be back
in her moms arms,
not on the other side of the country,
" Get Custody of Me,"
she told her mom everyday,
little did she know,
the courts rejected that very thing.

Slowly falling apart,
she can't help but think
"It's my fault, all my fault..."
If she had just stayed in the first place,
never got in that car,
leaving her mom behind,
she wouldn't be dead,
but be able to tell her I love you.

Overbearing guilt,
she can't handle this pain anymore,
screaming out for her mom,
wanting to end all the pain,
constantly telling herself,
You're the reason shes dead,
beating herself up,
over something she couldn't control,
she regrets everything shes ever done.