My head knows it's nothing.
Yet my heart aches.
The earth is trembling,
as my world quakes.
The words like a broken record.
Repeating it all once more.
And there goes my last chance.
Right out, slamming the door.
Friendship...
All I ever wanted.
Friendship,
Just something more I'll never see.
Friendship,
Just some pieces of the puzzle.
Friendship,
Will never be for me.
Just one more sleepless night for me.
Crying my eyes out on a blood stained pillow.
And I cant help but let my mind ponder.
Would you, oh could you ever know?
For every doubt,
I have one less heart break.
For every evil joke,
I hide my scars a little easier.
For every single pause,
I have a purpose.
I'm so flawed,
And it tears me so...
Flowing down my cheeks,
Ending the final show.
If you hated me for being me,
Why not just say...?
Instead of leading me on...
Why not just tell me to go away!
Now I lay here...helpless.
My bloody torn hopes in my hands.
Looking up at you...
And my neck is still where your Axe lands.
If you all just hated me so...
You could have mentioned it...
and without pause or question,
for the hell of it I'd just go.
Just to be able to end it.
Does everyone share the hate of a few?
Not even sure what I could do.
You didn't give me a chance...
You refused to let me through.
Antisocial.
Curse the first to speak the term.
But its true...
Antisocial...
Such a painful word.
"Antisocial", "Suicidal", "Manic Depressive"...
Just cause I have my armor...
Doesn't mean your words don't seep through.
Just because I don't scream it from the roof,
Doesn't mean I don't hurt any less than you.
You could never know the damage of a broken soul and mind.
And even if your horrid life matched a hundred years...
It could never hope to match mine.
Your friendship was honored and welcomed...
But you pushed me far away.
Now I shall stay here with my blood stained pillow...
And I shall cry it out all day.
