Love is a curse

I am overwhelmed
My senses heightened
Sensitive and
Feelings all over the place
my feelings stronger than ever
I can't help the way I feel
I can't fight it
but I try to ignore it

My heart was broken
but somehow the second time
was not as bad as the first
maybe because being engaged
together for almost a year
then ends it without a reason
it's far worse then being played

Falling in love
it seems to be my curse
but I love the feeling
it's just the heartbreak is not pleasant

heartbreak can be bad enough
to take a life
because the pain consumes your everything
I've been there twice
The feeling you'll never survive
You think it was you
but there's nothing wrong with you
you feel the hurt,pain
will never go away
but it will, especially when you
have someone to help get you through

Falling in love
because I believe in soulmates
I want to find mine
a curse
because in the end it hurts

Here's the truth
I miss him
I like him a lot
right now I feel it strong
but i can't fall
I can't be in love

I have doubts
Is he being honest
Is this real
Or is this some sick game
Some kind of self-ego thing

I am unsure
but he's sweet
and I miss the sweet things he says
I just wanna fall
lay in his embrace
Head in the clouds

But...
it's not worth the heartbreak

I am overwhelmed
My senses heightened
Sensitive and
Feelings all over the place
my feelings stronger than ever
I can't help the way I feel
I can't fight it
but I try to ignore it