Questions..

**PLEASE COMMENT**

Where do i start?
A million questions running through my head,
Why do you have to pretend you're ok around me?
I know you're not, i feel it in every bone in my body,
Why can't u look me in the eyes?
Are you afraid you might show some emotion for once?
Why must you always go through this alone?
I don't expect you to be the guy, who is always perfect,
Why do i try so hard to break you down?
I don't know why i try sometimes,
Why must we play this feeling game again?
Who pretends better, who hides the most,
I try so hard to be there,
To be the shoulder you need to cry on ,
I just want you to need me like i need you,
I want you to trust me like i trust you,
And i don't want those excuses anymore,
No i don't know how it feels,
And no it's not fair, life never is,
Can you just listen to me?
Can you feel something?
Anything just for one moment,
Please i beg you,
Please let me in,
Let your guard down,
For you to tell me what you need,
I don't know you anymore,
I don't know whether to stand back,
Or Stay close,
To smile or to walk away,
But one thing i do know is i love you with all my heart,
That i'm sorry, that i wish i could take away all this hurt,
That i would do anything to change everything,
For everything to be ok for you,
I would move heaven and earth to see those sparkling blue eyes,
I would do anything
I love you xoxo

**i wrote this for my boyfriend of 2 1/2 years, he just found out that his dad has cancer about a week ago and i just had to write this down, all the things i just couldnt say to him because he just closes up to me, and i just dont know what to say or do! **