Ive never been the popular outgoing girl I was never the weird geek though either I was always somewhere in between. What I was certain of though is I was the heart break girl and not because I broke hearts but because people broke mine. My whole high school career had been one let down after the other. I always attracted jerks for some reason I swear I could live in Alaska and manage to attract an jerk. Unlike my best friend who found an amazing guy her first time in the dating world. Their was also my friend Sam I will admit she has had a few jerks but most of the guys she has dated were really sweet took her on picnics and bought her flowers and stuff. Were as I haven't even been lucky enough to gain a single rose from a guy. Ive always been the girl that a guy had around until he realized he loved his ex again than left. I have never gotten my own fairy tale Ive just sat around and watched everyone get theirs. I no it might seem depressing but its never really bothered me all that much as long as the people I care about are happy and in love thats enough for me. Well maybe its not but if someone has to be hurt and heartbroken id rather be the one that is than anyone I care about. I no though because of my many let downs my heart has become hard it doesn't no how to trust are care anymore. I use to scream and dance every time a special guy text-ed me like a little girl on Christmas morning . My heart would skip a beat in my chest and I could honestly feel myself falling. Now I talk to way more guys than I should and none of them are really special I never let them get close enough to be. All I can think is don't get close because maybe not now but in awhile their going to hurt you so why cross that line at all. I kinda miss that girl that could fall in love so easy and believed in happy ever afters and prince charming and miracles but slowly and surly she got erased and all thats left is the heartbreak girl.
