"Laughter over the phone.
She says I love you so much baby. Starts to look up at her bedroom walls while sitting up in her bed, smiling.
Starts to think about laying with him.
Talking to her Lover in Spokane, WA.
Who she has never met.
(2 weeks later)
Stay chad please stay! I can't live..without you.
He leaves her
(4th day after breakup) She pulls out a gun, nd puts it in her mouth, crying in the bathroom mirror heavily.
Puffy eyes, red eyes of getting no sleep at all.
A heart and a head of broken dreams and love.
She walks into the living room.
Making it easier for people to find her.
Gets down on her knees.
Swollen ocean brown eyes.
Runny nose.
Call's her used to be lover, he doesn't bother to answer.
She leaves a message.
If you wanted to run, why did you start with my life.
In no time you had made me fine.
Now where are you..??
Please please please!
Leave her and be with me.
You are the only thing I care about Chad.
I'm that girl that would step infront of that bullet for you.
So what happened to us...baby?
You were not just a boyfriend you know!
Tear after tear out of each eye wetting the red carpet of her abusive home.
You were my inspiration to try harder in life, soon to be your wife and give you those beautiful newborn babies.
Made me the happiest girl in the world.
My Best Friend, and the Love Of My Life.
Left her for what a girl carries between her legs, because I could not be there right with him as soon as he wanted.
She loved him and she still does, or else she would not be writing this.
Babe please come back, call me everyday again in the morning and when you get back to your apartment after your shower from work.
Its been since Feb'11 since we brokeup.
I texted u in May at 4 in the morning.
You werent sleeping, were you thinking of me.
Or drinking your lost love away, because she's still here!
Texted you two days after that, you didnt reply.
I let it be.
But it has been 8 months, I just can't let you go. I never will unless you come back, you know.
These guys will never compare to you.
Everything you've ever done wrong to me, it is perfect, because I love you unconditonally.
I cannot touch or see you, but feel you.
I know that I am in love with you Chad.
I tell most guys I've dated that I love them, while your still in the front of my mind.
Lieing to them, so that they can make me feel loved.
So I won't think about you as much or miss you.
But it doesn't work.
Sets shells.
I Love You Forever Chad Pattison.
Shoots bullet.
Please come back to me so that I can stop thinking about this and be happy with only you.
Dedicated To: My Lost Lover
From: The Love Of Your Life
