It hurts,but I go on..

by Yakari Gabriel   Oct 16, 2011


And so,
another poem..

I was writing about myself,
two minutes ago..
struggling to make
my emotions flow
and forcing my mind
to run wild-
like a blooming teenager.

but again,
like every time I attempt
to focus on me,
and credit myself..
It didn't work.
insecurity pressed
backspace..
only to find you.

and,
I am..
sick and tired of it..
sick and tired of having you
in my thoughts,
of allowing my heart
to disrespect my mind
and twisting
what should be my truth.

tired of being delighted
by your words..
and being unable to hate you,
while still being perfectly capable
of hating myself for loving you.

Tired of the bitterness
I feel, whenever I make you
the inspiration of my poetry,

Still I keep on
hurting myself
writing about you..
because deep inside I know..
you're the only thing that
comes naturally..

and you're that one person..
I'll never get tired of writing about.

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  • 13 years ago

    by Sunshine

    I love the same part that britt loved, you know yaki sometimes, some ppl just like some emotions comes naturally..and u can never hate nature for what it brings!

    you cant hate urself for loving someone, or blaming yourself for it. feelings are things we cannot control, however do have the abiility to stop its flow only when we decide to.

    there is not, I cannt, and there is no, impossible. there is only, I do not want, and do not wish , nd do no dare.

    sometimes we are too afraid to let go of someone..until something or another someone comes up and proves you wrong.

    i love the honesty and faithfulness in this poem, the feeling of being stuff there..in the middle of your emotions fields..and the tense of wanting to reach again what u lost..this weeakness as well.. just make sure you're not surrounded by jerks ;)

    love it too :)

  • 13 years ago

    by nouriguess

    Oh lala! Jeeze, Yakz!

    'and,
    I am..
    sick and tired of it..
    sick and tired of having you
    in my thoughts,
    of allowing my heart
    to disrespect my mind
    and twisting
    what should be my truth.'

    Truth should not be definite, because most of the time, what we hide is the truth and what we show is just a lie. Truth isn't always clear, dear Yakz, do not force yourself to forget him, because the more you force yourself, the more he can get to you & your writings.

    :) I love you.

  • 13 years ago

    by Britt

    My, my, my. I don't even know where to begin with this. I think this is something that anyone who reads this, will feel connected. They will feel like you reached into them and wrote of their feelings. I think we all must write of that person that hurts us because its our release, and pain is the easiest to write.

    ' because deep inside I know.. you're the only thing that comes naturally..'

    I love this part. I have read it over and over and just adore it. Love, love!

  • 13 years ago

    by Decayed

    Good one (Y)

    I liked the ending of it, and how it runs smoothly in places, and quick in other places, like the blooming teenager :)

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