Saturday, October 8th.

I saw it coming
I couldv'e stopped it
But I lost all concern
No room for regret

No more excuses
No way out
It's inevitable now
How will it turn out?

I put up a fight
Just to be a tease
You keep asking
"Baby, Please?"

I wanted to stall
I could lose it all
You wouldn't have it
Yes was the only option

I hate the cold
But I was in it
So your warm bed
Seemed so splendid

The Spice you gave me
Made me feel amazing
I didn't care anymore
"Come one, baby"

One last thought
Then I lost all regard
For the feelings
Of the one I love

It was a bit awkward
But I got past that part
The war between my head and heart
Finally began to cease and stop

I layed on your bed
You planted a kiss
On my forehead
"I'm glad you said yes"

You kiss me
At first so gently
Then you grow confident
And get more into it

Soon enough
Our pants are off
Rap music is on
And of course a condom

No turning back now
Not that I want to
"Do you like it, baby"
"Yes, I do"

Almost an hour later
You let yourself finish
Time for me to go
So you walk me home

We go our seperate ways
The feelings stayed
I took a shower
To wash them away

I think of it everyday
You don't even talk to me
I knew this would happen
I don't want it to be this way

The night I saw you
Was the day I screwed him too
Spice was present
So I overdosed again

My head spinning
There was no room
No focus possible
I just lay shaking

It didn't last long
I couldn't avoid it
Like repeatitive lyrics
Stuck in my head

So with shaky hands
Wipe my sorrowful tears away
Maybe we'll speak again
Hopefully someday

You took advantage
But I let you
I can't take it back
I won't pretend I want to

The least you could do
Is be like your friend
And keep in touch
I'm not asking all that much

I saw it coming
I could've stopped it
But I didn't
However still no regrets