Suicidal..I Love You Chad By: Amber Stewart

"I've tried suicide,.
I've almost died plenty of times.
Even before I knew such a thing as suicide.

I grew from christian to an agnostic.
To people I've lost.
If there is a god, he better come down here and show me what my purpose is.

After Chad James Pattison.
The lost love of my life whom I never met.
Left me for another girl who lives in his state.
I've lost touch with dreaming, hoping, and faith.

I am suicidal.."

Dedicated To: All the guys I have loved and left me.
The family members who abuse me.
Mainly to you Guy in WA and True Feelings.

When you met me, I met me.
When you left me, I left me.
You said you would never let go...

Written: Oct.18.11 tues. 12:57 p.m. published.
Inspired by "Alpha Dog".