Sometimes I try

Sometimes I try...
not to want you,
not to need you,
not to reach out for you,
to resist the constant need
just to hear your voice again.

Sometimes I try...
to be strong,
to go on,
to say it's better this way.

Sometimes I try...
to convince myself
that I don't really need you,
that my breath doesn't stop when you leave,
that my life isn't tied to yours.

Is this what it feels like
when you truly fall in love?
Or am I just crazy,
am I obsessed,
is this what it feels like to love?

Sometimes I try...
not to think of you all the time,
not to see you
every time I close my eyes,
not to dream of you
every time I manage to fall asleep.

Instead of sleeping
I toss and turn all night
seeing you laying beside me,
feeling your touch on my skin.

Is this what it feels like
to truly love with all you are
or am I just addicted
to the sound of your voice,
to the way you make me feel?

Sometimes I wonder...
if I've lost it,
am I as crazy as they say
to need and want you so bad?
My every waking moment
spent thinking of you
and wishing you were within my reach.

Is this what it feels like
when you truly fall in love?
Or am I just crazy,
am I obsessed,
is this what it feels like to love?