Sorry Grandma

I know that you're happy somewhere,
smiling to me, telling me to smile again.
That you're in a better place right now,
but i really miss your voice around,
and I'm so sorry grandma,
I'm sorry grandma because you
were feeling pain and i wasn't there.
Because you loved me so much
and i couldn't do you the same.
Because i believed that nothing bad
would happen and you'd soon be okay.
But you were really leaving far away
taking with you my heart, everything
was beautiful in my life .
you've gone now and left behind a void space,
the riddle of the missing part of my memories
that i still can't find it anywhere.
Sorry grandma,
Because i wasn't ready for the painful wrench,
and i wasn't ready to say goodbye that day.
i was weak to see your face for the last time
and hear your latest words.
Sorry grandma because it took me so long
to realize it wasn't just a nightmare.
Because i wasn't the one who strewed flowers
on your grave.

Sorry grandma...