Mistakes today marks yesterday,
The time, the date, that very place.
I walk away, filled with self-hate.
I pass by a hospital, irony is sent my way.
I laugh it off, the laugh goes away,
The hate comes back, and it's here to stay.
How am I supposed to not bring you down,
When the dark and the pain is here to stay.
My dried tears no longer fall down my face,
My face is dry, but my past not erased.
Memories fade away, but some painful days still remain.
My pain effects those around me, believe me, this is not who I want to be.
I can't tell if what I see,
Is my stupid dreams,
Or my reality.
Do I fall in love too quickly?
Or do I feel to much, way too strongly.
Why do I keep venting to you?
My thoughts are useless, no matter how true.
You hate me, I hate me too,
Loving you is all I want to do.
In the back of my mind I see you through and through,
I see Ashley burning my heart in two.
I see your feelings you cry to,
I just want to hold you.
Pain stays and like I always say,
Some memories stay and some fade.
My life tends to stay in a haze,
Which way up, which way down, which way to my fate.
I'm quickly seeing how I want to stay,
But you just say for ages and ages that you want me to go away.
Into the rain, I go insane,
I wash the pain in the left-hand lane.
Cars dodging, avoiding my game.
They don't see I don't want to go home again.
I hear your lies, they kill me inside,
They make me want to commit suicide.
Words show feelings I try to describe,
But all I do is try and you just sigh
Like I said, it's a nice way to die,
All you gotta do is commit suicide.
The fire leaves, your happy and high,
Flying higher than the sky when you die,
So please let yourself realize that I don't deserve to stand by your side.
Let me go, say your goodbye,
Tell me what you want before I die.
Tell me what I should know, before it's too late, don't you dare cry.
I loved you, but I didn't love to try,
I gave up, I'm done- it's the end.
I said finally said goodbye.
