All i wanted was your acceptance
your pride and joy
your faith and happiness
i wanted you to treat me like chad
but instead you compare us
you tell us not to compete, not to mirror the other
but you always use us agents the other
he is your love
your pride and joy
he is your life
your everything
out of all of us
he comes first
sissy saw it
and when she called you out
you kicked her out
i had always known
but i was also blind
you were too
you couldn't see
that i was ill
i was always sick
through my infection in my ears
or through my sightless eyes
i used to think it was all okay
that, that was how life was
that was how family acted
sissy grew to be an alpha
the same as you
she called out
on all your mistakes
and you through her out
to her father's empty home
or to the law who wanted another you
you have the record
you have the pride
you have so many things
but you are also blind
dad tried to help
but he was true
to his promise
he wanted to take us
away from you
but he was scared
of what you'd say
so he kept his promise
even though it ruined out lives
sissy went south
with two children in her too young arms
chad is a male version of you
but he holds more hope then you
and i got out early
when you were behind the bars
and i was six past ten then
and now two can be added
i warned you before
not too go
not too trust the man
who wanted your life
but you pushed away
and ignored my warnings
you called me a foolish child
but you didn't need any words for that
after all
actions speak louder then words
and you needn't any words
when the look on your face says it all
your an open book
even to me as a child of three
can't you see?
your walking in circles again
if you don't stop soon
you'll continue on
that perfect rounded path
