Overdose x.x

Who do you see lying there?

As I am being lifted higher and higher.

I see what you see, but I know who.

This is me, depressed with desire.

Dying on the floor.

A pretty unpleasant sight,

Looking at me from above.

My idea was not so bright.

A child who played in the sun.

With the hopes and dreams,

The teen who was loved by so many.

At least thats what it seems.

Trying so hard to find my inner me.

When I got addicted, thoes terrible things.

Of the demons who haunted and taunted me.

Ugh, the feelings that it brings.

But somewhere there still is the person.

Who knows myself inside and out.

Who now lives in fear of a hostile world,

Who is aways livinng in doupt.

Just wanted to see beyond

The mind of a real person that cares.

So you could know a bit of me.

I'm not the one that shares.

The things I do are so deadly,

I wish I was thinking,

Before I swallowed fourteen.

Looking at myself rapidly blinking.

My body, giving up.

My heartbeat slowing down.

Wishing I have not done this.

My skin turning yellowish brown.

I can't stop it now.

All I can to is glare.

At me, suffering alone.

My body, lying there...