Lost love

I lost the love i loved the most,
it was here but now it's a ghost,
I'm running to stay still,
the pain makes me ill,
the pain is not a game,
it frightens me, but somehow enlightens me,
I'm shy when you say hi,
but I'm scared to say goodbye,
I don't want this to end,
I said were just friends,
the pain never ends,
it continues to hurt me,
like a flame that just burnt me,
you thought you could desert me,
instead you just left me,
so i made an exit,
I have now just ended this.