I cant deal with this anymore
I want this to go away
Your voice is filled with hostility
No matter what you say
I'm scared to think what this could lead to
A phone call from hell
We know we had these problems
But we never wanted to tell
I guess it eventually had to happen
Laying it all out on this table
I guess I just didn't want to
I didn't think we were able
I stop to think if our friendship is strong enough
And that is what hurts me the most
Just to question the one thing that was once most important
Our tempers are starting to roast
I know you hang out with her more
I act like it doesn't bug me
“Oh that's great that you all share that,” I state
As you say, “Listen to this poem she wrote of me”
I love her more than anything
I know she is my friend
But excluding me while you go gallivanting around
Makes me think this might be the end
Where's a poem for me, I think?
I guess you just don't care as much about me
I'm just not as important
I guess, as good of a friend as that is, with you, I will never be
I hear you hang up after awkward silence
And I think, “Oh Lord, she did NOT just do that”
I couldn't believe that this wasn't an accident
It makes me feel mad and upset
I know right now I think
That I could easily just never talk to you again
I would be fine on my own
Just hang out with my other friends
I don't want to speak with you anytime soon
But I have to go with you somewhere tomorrow
I will put up a wall and a fight
I wish to bring you only sorrow
I never want to bring up my problem
With you and her excluding me
It will always make me feel stupid
I guess that's how it will always be
I stop and think and wonder
How easy it would be to let go
That after all the complications
How easily I could make you my foe
I know I hold that power in me
I'm not sure if I want to use it
Right now I want to hold this all against you forever
I hope I make the right decision and with this privilege… i hope I don't abuse it
