Car Crash

My best friend had just gotten her driver's license.
That was so very cool.
She could not wait to take me
Somewhere after school.
I will take you to the mall,
Or wherever you want to go.
The day is for you and me
I will drive you through this snow!
She picked me up at my house about seven.
It was already dark outside.
I got into the passengers seat
And she smiled really wide.
So, she said,
Where is it you want to go?
I said the mall would be fine
And off we went into the snow.
She got on the highway
Her favorite song came on
She just started singing along.
I did not have a smile on my face,
So she asked me what was wrong.
I told her that I did not like her doing drugs
And that she was throwing away her life
I told her that seeing her do those things
Pierced my heart with a knife.
She said it was not that bad
And not to worry.
I told her to pull over,
Since we couldn't see through all the flurries.
It was a bad excuse to just talk,
But it really did come true.
Suddenly as we were turning off the road,
A bus came and does what a car crash will do to you.
It bashed into her side.
I passed out and woke up in a hospital
Feeling very mystified.
I wanted to know how she was!
I had to know what was going on!
Then suddenly a figure emerged,
I saw that it was her mom.
The moment i heard that she had died,
I sat and we cried and we cried.
I was just trying to help her get her life back,
But i ended up taking it away when we were having a fight.
In my dreams and in my nightmares,
I always imagine that night.
I miss her so much
I'm always told not to feel this guilt
But when i think about it being my fault,
My stomach starts to wilt
But i feel her soul within me.
Especially through all our memories and pictures.
All i know is that she'll always be with me,
And that i will hopefully always be with her.