I keep talking
I'm making matters worse
I bring up the subject I know will cause conflict
My whole being is a curse
You should just go off together
Live and be in your happy days
I'm the only one keeping you from doing that
I only get in the way
You share secrets that you never tell me
I act like it doesn't bug me
You talk in whispers while I sit away from you
I just want you to come and hug me
I have this problem where I don't want to be happy
I wish you to go away
Because I don't want this to be right or perfect
I don't want everything to be okay
Just be happy together
Go on and leave me be
Just live out your lives
In peace and harmony
I'm so sorry that I get in the way
I'm so sorry that I waste your time
I guess I just feel abandoned
Your best of friendship will never be mine
I look at you and feel hate
But just act normal on the outside
I feel betrayed and unloved
But all of this I do hide
You all are my best friends
I love you so very much
But I just want you all to leave me alone
Let us just get out of touch
I see us over the years
Just basically growing apart
I feel kind of guilty
Because now it doesn't really hurt my heart
I see us passing by on the street
Not even looking up
But us all thinking of how we used to be the best of friends
Too afraid and bitter to ask about hooking up
I will never tell you all how I feel
I will never tell you this scheme
Because it would change your whole judgement
Of me as a human being
I've tried to tell you that I'm a horrible person
But you never seem to listen to me
Just get it through your thick skull
I don't want to be nice and friendly
So just back away from me, my former friend
But of course you don't know anything about that yet
I guess I'm just someone that you'll never understand
Me you will never quite get…
