How i feel

I sit here and wounder
what am i in this for if all we do is argue
I'm happy when I'm in this with you but what are we
two getting out of this
thats what i want to tell you
what i wish to ask
i sometimes feel smart
and i know that may seem dumb of me to say
i think i think i know what i hope to know
i wish what i felt i knew was nothing at all
is it just for that
is it really all you want
how do i know if i cant read minds
how do i know if i haven't known you my whole life
i guess trust is the answer but how do you trust if no one knows what trust is. whats the true definition of trust
whats the right way to go in life.
if i had a dime every time that went through my head.
if you had to ask
yes i am happy with you and what do i want from you?
well my answer to that would be and will be if i ever get the courage to say it to your face,
dear amazing one who every time i see you i feel my heart beat just a little bit more
dear amazing one
you know because i have mentioned
I'm a women with feelings so i ask that you feel
I'm a women with a caring heart so i ask that you care for it
I'm a women that loves and although i may need that right now i cant ask you for it
how does one ask for such things
greediness is in my head i guess
i cant have my cake and eat it too?
why
why cant you be gentle and kind but at the same time a man with needs?
i never said i hate it
i just don't need it
i can live without it can you ?
i like you i say to your face
your amazing i say to your face
but when can i say that i have no bothersome about our talk that night
i guess i will not know
until then ....