The voices inside my head

by Karla   Nov 8, 2011


Those eyes behind the mirror
are like cameras watching me,
spying my vulnerability and isolation.

I told them I am well.
Those voices don't call my name anymore
but they never listen to me.
I have been getting fat and fat each day.
They say I can't improve:
my behaviour is not acceptable.
(what is acceptable anyway?)

I wish I had other options
besides being knocked out all the time,
Can't control my mind.
They said there is a monster lurking
at the bottom of it.

I was imposed a discrediting classification.
Labels, labels all around.
The voices inside my head never stop.
(I lied. Who can help me?)
They are yelling at me now.
Can't control them.
I should wear earplugs.
I should play loud music.

Can you hear me?
The injection again.
Who am I ?
Who are you?

Karla Bardanza

http://asmoonsewsthesatinstars.blogspot.com

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  • 12 years ago

    by Baby Rainbow

    Well done for writing this, I again felt connected tot his piece and enjoyed the way you layed this out and worded it.

    I could picture you being restrained in a centre or hospital against your will, and I liked how you mentiont he labels which society is so big on now. They feel they have to put a label on everything and everyone and what they suufer with.

    I feel so sorry for the people who seek help and get judged and labelled instead. Then they wonder why people suffer in silence!

    I gather fromt his it is about mental illness? Perhaps bipolar or schizophrenia?

    Great poem, I liked again how you talk to the reader through the brackets. I like this in your writing.

  • 13 years ago

    by Lostlove1

    We always are much harder on ourselves than others are. You are a gifted poet Karla, and a wondeful person. Never forget that!

  • 13 years ago

    by Saerelune

    I truly love the way you perceive dark poetry. It's sinister but personal, perhaps psychological depth. This write was no different, though I have to say that it came a bit as a surprise, for it had quite a modern spin. I think I am always used to your poetry as something rather classical. Yet there I find all objects of our own time and it's really interesting the way you still manage to carry the same tone of your other works throughout.

  • 13 years ago

    by Decayed

    Now that was something so enjoyable, and it made my heart pump so fast.

    It's about being labeled.. dog tags and stuff.
    And their voices are just inside ours! It's so damn annoying.

    I should wear earplugs.
    I should play loud music.

    ^ MY FAVORITE PART :)

    Cheers.
    We just want to shut the Fuk up. really shute'em up!

    It's like being a psyche. Psychotic manifestations, and sounds looming over our head!! You made me feel that. It is so ALOUD!

    And the end... I can feel that it's about a mad-man, with the manifestations he visualized.
    Actually, it was so tense and dense.

    High Five :)

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