Its about 2 am. I should be getting to bed right now, but idk I Just can't sleep. I Lay down and try to fall sleep. All I do is roll around. Things that come to my mind are mostly you. I feel bad because, I tried to change for you this time. I'm still feel like I'm a bad girlfriend that's was here before. I'm not jealous like I us to be. I don't want you to think I am because I'm not. I may sound like jealous but just like you It me getting worried. I cant help u when u come to me for help. I still don't listen to you when u have bad days like I promise, i would. I cant carry a good conversation and I don't open up to you like I said.I feel like I'm just a failure at life. I can't make things better between us and life. When I really want to. I love you so much and I just wanna be the best for you. I don't wanna lose you ever again. I hope you don't wanna lose me. I feel like in the end I just fail and I really don't want to fail with you because to me your my life. Distance between you and I is very dreadful but I can go through it knowing I am yours still. Then moments, when I miss you dearly is when I realize this waiting will pay off someday. All are little augments and bumps will disappear. We will have that moment together we deserve. I made you a promise and I'm going to fight for us, I'm goin to make every one of our moments count. I will love you and be faithful because your the only one I want.ÂÂ
