This is going to be a long comment, I have so much to say..

I love the beginning, the use of honestly just gears me up for blatant truth and vulnerability. You hit a soft spot for a lot of people who may have a hard time being themselves sometimes, or maybe are themselves too often and it's so strong, that maybe they feel the need to take a break.

Love the idea of writing without compromise (ing your heart). It's so true sometimes when we write, we hold back a little bit, in fear of those who will read it, will they get a certain bad reaction? Those who don't read it won't ever know, but still I feel like if we put it out there, they'll just -know- somehow.

It's funny you say you don't want to be you and don't want to be vulnerable in your poetry, but when being truthful to yourself, it's always being vulnerable. Love it.

It's interesting where the next stanza turns, saying you don't WANT to be able to write. Why would you want to take away such a blessed talent?!

Yaki, you're a noun, not a verb. ;) haha that part made me laugh, but I also understand the depth here. You're craving to be something, anything, anyone different than who you currently are, no matter what it takes from you.

"the same way a young girl
would hide her swollen
womb from the world
because she's too ashamed
to admit that a man
came inside of her.."

This part reminds me of those poems you've been reading lately, about how you're just so crass and out there with the truth that your readers kind of gasp, or sit back in silence, not quite knowing what to say, rather just let your stanzas sink in, line by line.

"that a woman must never
exchange her heart for luxury."

I love this. So wise, so so wise. I don't even know what to say about this part. It's just beautiful.

The ending is a strong one as well, it really kind of hit me hard. I love the words you chose with loveless love making (makes you wonder why they call it making love, eh?).

I think this is one of your most honest pieces. I was taken on a journey through your words, and it was just fantastic. You should be recording yourself and putting it on youtube, like the others. You fit right in :)

EDIT: WOO HOO YAKI I can edit this! Did you see it pop up? Let me know :)