Every time i walk by a fence

Every time i walk by a fence i get lost trying to keep up with the number of links. 73, 74, 75, 76... " hey whats up" crap i lost count. " Nothin why "? " No reason Bye ". Where was I ooh... I know I'm not gonna get a prize for knowing how many links are on a fence, but it consumes me. One thing i can never help is when i walk by a fence my fingers glide against it. After a while they hurt a little, but i keep going. Soon i can't feel my fingers. I check to see if they're still there witch is stupid cause i know they are. As i continue to do this my hand goes numb. I stop laughing and let my mind wonder. I wish that my entire body would go numb and feel this way. If i take my body and glide against the fence maybe it will. But i know it wont, wont stop my hurt so i keep walking. But if i did I'd be fine i planed it out. My hand would go first, then my arm, all the way across my side, on to my breast and legs, to my feet. My neck and chest to my face. I surrender to it as it takes my body like a flesh eating virus. But unfortunately i live my life with this thing called emotion. i feel it as if it were a heavy load unneeded in life. But every time i by a fence i get lost.