Lord, I pray..too

God..

"Forgive me for I
knew not
what I was doing",

forgive them for the injustice
but forgive me for my sadness
forgive them for their hatred
and forgive me for my blindness.
Forgive them for being harsh
but forgive me for being weak.

Forgive me for forgetting about you,
for my despair, my helplessness,
for my thoughtlessness and surrender.

Forgive my wasted time
forgive my wasted money,
my moments of ignorance
for the words I should have kept
and the words I should have said.

Forgive me for my silence,
yet forgive me for my anger
for my judgement and distrust,
for my doubtful mind,
for my laziness
for my insecurities
for my fears, my endless fears
and worries...

forgive that I forgot that you
are the father of all languages,
for forgetting that you understand
the biggest words uttered through
my silence...

for not remembering that with
every breath I take, there's
my Lord, watching above me
for not remembering that with
every sigh I let go, there's
my Lord, watching around me
for not remembering that with
every tear I cry, there's
my Lord watching beneath me
for not remembering that with
every word I speak, there's
my Lord listening behind me
for nor remembering that with
every thought, every beat there's
my Lord inside of me!

For forgetting that every second
every word, every tear, every vision
every beat, every bit of emotion
does not occur, if you weren't there
ahead of me, everywhere.

And anytime,
even when Lord I pray...not.

by: Rania Moallem