I'm sick of...

I'm so sick of getting hurt...I'm so damn sick of crying. Just when I think I've got it all figured out, I get dropped right back on my butt again. I'm sick of trying to smile through all the pain...For what? I'm sick of trying to find a reason to smile! I'm sick of making the effort to talk to you, when you could care less. I'm sick of waiting for you to call..cos you never do when I need you most. I'm sick of blaming myself for what we've become; I'm sick of playing this song over and over, it brings back too many memories I can't erase. I'm sick of wishing you were here by my side, I'm sick of wondering what and where you are, and I'm sick of getting my hopes up sky high and then getting dropped gutter low. I'm sick of never feeling good enough, I'm sick of what I see in the mirror and I'm sick of coming to people for help and just getting shot down. Most of all, I'm sick of trying to be perfect..Trying to get you to look at me how I look at you...and I'm REALLY sick of pretending you're going to save me n protect me n let no 1 destroy me, im sick of hurting when i see u with her, im sick of pretending this fake smile i wear everyday, im sick of guys constantly hurting me n treating me like shit, I'm sick of lying to poeple telling them I'm fine when all I won't is to die, I'm sick of u making me feel like this. Im sick of u lying to me telling me u love me.

Because of u today I'm not the same cos of what u made me </3