Smiling but torn inside...

Thoughts are storming in,
failure is written in my eyes,
others can't see these tears,
oh they would be so surprised.

I smile like everything is okay,
I encourage others that it will work out,
I hold them up when they want to give up,
but deep down, I'm filled with my own doubts.

How can I sit here and make this mistake,
wishing to go back and play it all over again,
taking every last breath I had within,
wondering if this could be the end.

My paper heart is shredded to pieces,
my life is nothing but broken glass,
watching as people stare at me,
but they turn their heads and just pass.

With my hands trembling,
my body has become numb.
Could this really be the end?
Is my life truly done?

Questions fill my head tonight,
pain engulfs my entire heart,
shaking, I fall to my knees,
my life is ripped apart.

As I hold my hands to my face,
they are soon drenched in tears.
The pain has become too much,
wishing and hoping to disappear...