Complicated Friendship

If it is not love
that we are to pursue
perhaps it is friendship then

I now understand
I now know
where you come from

That said
my feelings still
staying the same
and that's what makes
this friendship harder

This friendship
has changed everything
but the feelings I have for you

I hope this will end soon
I hope we will be once again
because I feel, I cannot
live without you in my life

I cannot deny my heart
that I gave to you
I'll keep the promise's made
because deep down
I really do love you

I can wait
now's not the time.
I will lay it in God's hands
and hope he gives me you

I do not see a future
without you

I know I deserve this
it's not just a desire
and I still can't get you
off my mind

You have been nothing
but different
different from thee others
this thing, it's something new
I just wanna be with you

And I miss you now
more than ever
but you'll never know
for we are bound
to a friendship

but I hope and pray
this friendship grows
to be more
just like I feel in my heart

Please let it be you