Seeking Love

I can't image, I can't define

Is it all in my wondrous mind?

I can't believe this is happening again

Is my family forced to commit all these sins?

My head is not fully clear

My heart is cluttered with pain and fear

I suffer from painful scars on the inside and out

I always wondered if this was what life was all about

You cry and you laugh and fall and choke

But always in the end you windup broke

And it is very hard to fix

This world is filled with so many tricks

You are born and you are trying to survive

Some people love life and other wonder why they are alive

Then you die and then it ends

And another one begins

But I am the one who is wondering why I am alive

I am getting to the point where I can no longer strive

When I look around and see no one near

I am screaming for help, but no one can hear

I keep moving from place to place

Then one day I looked in the mirror and dazed at my face

I ask myself, how do I make it threw the day?

Why do I have to pay?

Will I end up like my mom?

Endless night's days so long

Will I carry on the tradition and learn how to waste life and fail?

Get high, and drink and find myself back in jail?

I look in the reflection and daze and daze

And think about how my whole life has been a maze

I go the the wrong way and have to turn around

Then before you know it I am no where to be found

Then I start to pray

God, am I supposed to feel hurt day by day?

Why am I here?

Will you send me a guardian angel to walk me through my fears?

Will you help me find a way?

Not to suffer everyday

I want someone I can trust and love

I know I have you, but you are way up above

I want a holding hand, a crying shoulder

I want my happiness to grow bolder

Please help find what I am seeking for

Right now I need so much more

Then I could no longer bare

I had to look away from the heartbreaking stare

I tried not to shed a tear

Or think about a dreadful pain or fear

But then one day someone, something took my hand

And took me away from misery land

They were showing me thing I never thought I could see

They were showing me who I could actually be

But something was weird, something was strange

I was beginning to feel I change

Is this love?

Did my prayer get answered from up above?

I felt happiness, I wasn't sad

Is the feeling I never had?

Thank you God for answering my prayer

You sent me someone who actually cares

Thank you God from up above

You saved my life

Just by love <3