I close my eyes,
Wondering how long it'll be,
Until I can feel again.
This numbness could last,
Seconds,
Hours,
Maybe even days.
Until it goes away,
All I can do is sit tight,
And keep myself distracted,
While trying to remind myself,
Why I should keep on living.
Though as I thought of it,
What was I living for?
I had no one,
No one in my life to depend on,
No one to love.
I had nothing to look forward to,
No one to look foward to seeing.
Tears run down my cheeks,
And I whisper to myself,
"Live for what's to come...
Whatever that may be."
I hold on to that,
Tiny bit of hope for dear life,
Knowing that no matter how bad it is,
No matter how numb I may feel,
It will always get better...
It has to.
