The tears that my heart sheds flow like the river of love
And they flow because of love, or rather uncertain love.
How can I love someone who I am not sure loves me in return?
When I see his face I am happy, everything clears.
But when I look around and can't find him anywhere, I am lost.
How is it that one person can make me feel that way?
And yet when he sees me he simply looks away as if it's nothing at all.
When he's near me he moves near someone he hates.
Does it pain him that much to be in my presense?
He goes days without speaking to me and even longer without holding me near.
His words say he loves me, but his actions say otherwise.
I never imagined how much one person can play with my emotions in such ways.
He says he loves me one day and the next acts like I don't exist.
I ask him why he does this and all he says is "I don't know."
Typical guy, saying "I don't know" as a cop out rather than saying his reasons for his behavior.
How can I hate someone and love them at the same time.
In truth, I don't hate him. I can never hate him.
He takes up too much of my heart for me to possibly hate him.
I get angry with him for not showing me that he loves me for a long period of time,
But no amount of anger that grows inside of me for him can turn into hatrid.
All I want to know is why he can't just stay the way he is when he makes me happy.
I want to know why he has to leave my heart breaking slowly because of him,
And having no means of reparing the damage he has done.
This heart has been broken before and he has managed to make it whole again,
However, now he is the one doing the damage, and I don't know if I can forgive him for that.
I've spent hours crying over him, even though I have not lost him.
Knowing that he will be sweet, charming, and loving one second,
And the next second he brutally murders my heart, hurts more than if I were to loose him.
I can feel my heart break more and more everyday.
He knows that it is breaking because I have told him,
But what does he do about it?
NOTHING!
