Coming from the heart

Ever find that one person you want to spend the rest of your life with and truly settle down with them..
not even get a divorce
nor separate
have that real love
as in we gone make it through thick and thin
weather its us on real thin ice you do not care cause you know that yall gone make it cause your love is strong its unbreakable..
you want to be with them forever and ever..
it is that way with you and i..
but it sucks because my past interferes..
i can not even experience true happiness anymore..
been hurt to many times..
it is really hard for me to get over that like look past that and try to not think man what if this happens like the rest..
cant show much expression of love without having fear of being hurt in the end..
start to feel as though you can not show or give to much till marriage
but then you wonder damn?
will that person even stay long enough to even know and understand the way you feel
or will they just push off and go on to the next person..
will they actually take the time out to listen to me..
hear what i have to say
and not think it is weird crazy or obnoxious and not laugh at me
truly be there for me..
it is scary you know...